A-hem. Alright then. All eyes forward. Yes, that's right. It's officially a New Year. And what have I managed to accomplish in the past 365 days? Not much worthwhile. Striving to make 2011 a better year-one with less brazenness; less holding back? Mhm...that's what I'm leaning towards.
Enough with the melodrama.
AGH! I'M ALMOST 19!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
can you believe it???
I can't. I'm absolutely shocked by this realization. Totally and Utterly shocked.
Annnnd scene. I'm tired. I started this, and i guess it shall have to be a work-in-progress.
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Sunday, November 14, 2010
These Are A Few Of My Favorite Things...
*Babies: the sweet, clean way they smell, the way they look when they're asleep, they way they giggle.
*Caramel Macchiatos: to be enjoyed in an overstuffed leather chair, with a side of Snow Patrol, or The Smiths, and a good, musty smelling book.
*Hoodies: they remind me of bonfires, football games, and wet tennis shoes.
*Music. enough said.
*Cameras: the way i can get lost in the ideas i get while walking around looking at things.
*Soccer: it's exercise that i actually LIKE. :)
*Curios George: something about the innocence of that monkey just gets me.
*Books: i get lost. in the best ways.
*Edgar Allen Poe: yeah, he was crazy, and into drugs, and yes, he married his cousin, but that was the norm back then...he was genius.
*Caramel Macchiatos: to be enjoyed in an overstuffed leather chair, with a side of Snow Patrol, or The Smiths, and a good, musty smelling book.
*Hoodies: they remind me of bonfires, football games, and wet tennis shoes.
*Music. enough said.
*Cameras: the way i can get lost in the ideas i get while walking around looking at things.
*Soccer: it's exercise that i actually LIKE. :)
*Curios George: something about the innocence of that monkey just gets me.
*Books: i get lost. in the best ways.
*Edgar Allen Poe: yeah, he was crazy, and into drugs, and yes, he married his cousin, but that was the norm back then...he was genius.
Friday, November 12, 2010
The Smiths and all things Inky.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DRtW1MAZ32M
"And if a double decker bus crashes into us, tonight by your side is such a Heavenly way to die."
Yes. I am a sucker for old(er) music. :) I'm a nerd, and I'm not afraid to flaunt that.
Ok. So. I've been at my job for about 2 and a half months. So far, i like it. A lot.
I'm good at what I do, and I've made a lot of new friends. I can get as many hours in as i want to-i could work a 12 hour day if I so desired-which I DON'T, but if I wanted to, I could. It's tiring, and sometimes I start to crack, but most of the time, it's good. :)
I'm on a campaign to stop smoking. Cigarettes contain arsenic, cyanide, carpet glue, and now, whale barf. Whyyyy do i like them exactly? yuuuck.
Annnnnnd I digress.
I started this post a few days ago. And now I have new stuff to talk about. Whether or not anyone chooses to listen, that's up to them.
I've met someone. For now, just a friend. Who knows...it might go further, it might not. Either way, I found a new friend with similar interests. :) And I'm stealing something from him-cause I'm horribly envious and wish I could freestyle like him. And here it is.
"Freedom In Distress-People Hypnotized By The Me
"And if a double decker bus crashes into us, tonight by your side is such a Heavenly way to die."
Yes. I am a sucker for old(er) music. :) I'm a nerd, and I'm not afraid to flaunt that.
Ok. So. I've been at my job for about 2 and a half months. So far, i like it. A lot.
I'm good at what I do, and I've made a lot of new friends. I can get as many hours in as i want to-i could work a 12 hour day if I so desired-which I DON'T, but if I wanted to, I could. It's tiring, and sometimes I start to crack, but most of the time, it's good. :)
I'm on a campaign to stop smoking. Cigarettes contain arsenic, cyanide, carpet glue, and now, whale barf. Whyyyy do i like them exactly? yuuuck.
Annnnnnd I digress.
I started this post a few days ago. And now I have new stuff to talk about. Whether or not anyone chooses to listen, that's up to them.
I've met someone. For now, just a friend. Who knows...it might go further, it might not. Either way, I found a new friend with similar interests. :) And I'm stealing something from him-cause I'm horribly envious and wish I could freestyle like him. And here it is.
"Freedom In Distress-People Hypnotized By The Me
Yup....he's pretty cool. :)
THIIIIISSSS is random. It's like, random on adderall. With an extra helping of ADD. And I'm sorry. But it's what's going on in my head right now. It's been too long since I've been on here, and I've gotta just sort of type stuff as it comes to me.
This year, for TWLOHA http://www.twloha.com/, I, instead of just writing "LOVE" on my arm, did this:---------------------------->>>>>
Those lines? They're the names of over 60 people who asked me to pray for them; people who've lost someone to suicide; people who've cut; people who've come to points in their lives and thought, "No way. I'm done. I'm tired of dealing with all this. I'm just done."
...I've been there, and made it through to the other side. It looks completely undoable at first, to get through, alive, but it IS possible. I'm living, (scarred) proof. There's HOPE. and LOVE. <3 Writing all these names-seeing them on my arm at work, I was reminded to pray. Goes along with the Bible, and how we're supposed to "pray without ceasing." It really did help me. The people God brings through the hard stuff, have a testimony-a story to tell, and let it be used by God in whatever way He sees fit.
....I met alot of amazing people on FB on the TWLOHA FB page-one girl stands out-Crystal, and her baby girl, Zoya. Something else that stands out-Jeri, and her kids, including Aleea, whose (husband/daddy) decided it'd be better/easier/whatever to take his life instead of seeking help. Those two stories brought tears to my eyes, and I've been praying alot for them all. The names serve as quiet reminders...
On another note. I GOT CHEEZITS!!! I've been craving those tasty little orange crackers for awhile. Soooo, yesterday, on a whim, I went to Big Lots and bought an entire box, all for myself. And I also got Arizona tea. I'd rather have Peace Tea, but I'm good with saving the $$ at Big Lots. :)
These amazing little four sided baked epitomes of yummy were taken to work with me today, but they were hardly touched. Incept fed us. Because we had a great October. :) Hard work pays off...and, in the words of Dave Walter, "Just think 'Steak.' " ...I like the way this guy thinks! :p
....there was aloooot of food. subs, chips, cake, and then, they came around later when we were all back on the phone, and were dragging a cooler around with popsicles/fudge pops/orange creamsicles!!! I have an awesome job-they pay me to sit there and talk on the phone, colour, and eat ice cream! ...haha not really...those are just perks. But really-it's a great job-Sooooo thankful to have it! ....Worked from 10:30 to 9:45 today to help pick up the LifesourceREM's...between the 20 of us who came in early, we kicked major bootaaayyy! the files were done by, i wanna say, 1pm? ...and we started at 11. Sooo. between us all, we got about 2000 files done! :D Way to be guys! ! !
....just looked at the bottom of the screen-it's almost 2am! ...gotta get off to bed...heading into work by 10 am and trying to get to where I'm worked up to a 50 hour work week. :) Not gonna be easy, but eventually...
....there was aloooot of food. subs, chips, cake, and then, they came around later when we were all back on the phone, and were dragging a cooler around with popsicles/fudge pops/orange creamsicles!!! I have an awesome job-they pay me to sit there and talk on the phone, colour, and eat ice cream! ...haha not really...those are just perks. But really-it's a great job-Sooooo thankful to have it! ....Worked from 10:30 to 9:45 today to help pick up the LifesourceREM's...between the 20 of us who came in early, we kicked major bootaaayyy! the files were done by, i wanna say, 1pm? ...and we started at 11. Sooo. between us all, we got about 2000 files done! :D Way to be guys! ! !
....just looked at the bottom of the screen-it's almost 2am! ...gotta get off to bed...heading into work by 10 am and trying to get to where I'm worked up to a 50 hour work week. :) Not gonna be easy, but eventually...
Everyone Deserves Friends Like Mine.
Like i said. Everyone deserves friends like mine.
that's all.
Today was fairly productive. This weekend, however, shall be forevermore known as an episode on "Welcome to Ft. Roberts."
...I came home from work on Saturday night to have Ehlias try to "pillow surf" in the hallway. He ended up almost biting through his lower lip. Lots of blood. He's alright now, but yeeeesh I hadn't realized there was THAT much blood in a lip! After that escapade, mom went to bed, and I stayed up and washed the dogs. Gidg had gotten sick and they alllll needed baths. Then, later, I went to church. And broke my big toe. And of course, this all happened while dad was out of town for work.
Today, was a little better. #1: Mom let me sleep for a long time today. :)
#2 I'm pretty certaint that I aced my interview at Jimmy John's.
#3, I'm going to work tomorrow, and Jackies' party tomorrow after work:)
#4 I got to go out w/ Mayyya.
that's all.
Today was fairly productive. This weekend, however, shall be forevermore known as an episode on "Welcome to Ft. Roberts."
...I came home from work on Saturday night to have Ehlias try to "pillow surf" in the hallway. He ended up almost biting through his lower lip. Lots of blood. He's alright now, but yeeeesh I hadn't realized there was THAT much blood in a lip! After that escapade, mom went to bed, and I stayed up and washed the dogs. Gidg had gotten sick and they alllll needed baths. Then, later, I went to church. And broke my big toe. And of course, this all happened while dad was out of town for work.
Today, was a little better. #1: Mom let me sleep for a long time today. :)
#2 I'm pretty certaint that I aced my interview at Jimmy John's.
#3, I'm going to work tomorrow, and Jackies' party tomorrow after work:)
#4 I got to go out w/ Mayyya.
Thursday, August 26, 2010
How many adults does it take to outsmart a pop machine?
Just sayin', my job is turning out to be SO MUCH FUNNN!
:D
At the beginning of training, it seemed to just drag; now, it's flying by! I'm learning SO much, getting to know people so much better, and laughing so much! Tonight, for example: I was falling asleep during the first part of the class, so at our first break, I was going to get a Monster energy drink from the pop machine in the break room. Beau walked over with me, and Ericka was in there when we got there. She was standing there staring angrily at the pop machine, and we asked what had happened. She explained that it took her dollar and she wanted her money back...then we all thought, "Hey! Well, all three of us are getting something, how about one of us goes ahead and then we'll get her dollar back as change! Yeah! That'll work!!" So, I put my dollar and quarter in, and pressed the button for the Monster drinks. I got it, and got a quarter back for my change. I hadn't realised that Monster's were two dollars. So then, Beau was going to get something to get Ericka's change back, and that didn't work. So, then, a woman who was sitting there at a table behind us gave Ericka some change. But that still didn't mean Beau could get what he was going to. So he and I went back to the training room and I gave him all the change I had. Which turned out to not be enough. Then, a woman who's in training with us asked him how much he needed...all he needed was a quarter...she gave it to him, and everything was resolved. But it literally took FIVE adults to outsmart the freaking pop machine! AGHHH! Needless to say, it made me laugh. A lot. :)
...it's things like that, that make me love my job so much. Even though, technically, I've only worked there for three days. And that's only training so far. Anyways. Another reason: Beau. He and I are besties, and working with him is just the most fun thing. :) I think the people who work there are just so awesome. Everyone seems to like working there, and they all seem to get along really well!
I've set a major goal for myself, since last night. It was triggered by a few things...
....I've decided to quit smoking. Cold turkey, I'm finished. I have no more cigarettes, and don't plan on buying any more. I think the first time I thought about quitting was two days ago, at work, when we went on break and I immediately reached for them. The thought flashed through my head that it was unusual for me to go for them w/out thinking about it. I passed it off, grabbed them, and went outside and lit up. It then hit me, yesterday, that a major source of recreation for me is smoking. While I still want to do it, it's kind of gross to me now...thinking about Special Blends gives me a headache...which it has NEVER done before...I had kind of thought that after I finished this pack, I wasn't going to buy any more, and see if I could handle it. Mom and dad beat me to it though. I guess they found empty packs in my trash. And they called me on it last night. So, it all came to a big confrontation, and I'm done. I'll probably end up smoking cigars with friends once in a while, but definitely not as a regular thing.
...I've got this job, now I need to keep my act together. Plus, I was spending alot of money on cigarettes...which I could've been saving. It's a stupid thing to waste money on, because, not only does it hurt you, gradually, albeit, but it also takes money in small increments that you don't really miss. It's a dangerous habit, for more reasons than the obvious. I need to turn some things in my life around: this is just the first step in the process.
...Anyways. I figured it'd be easier to totally quit, now that it's public, on the internet, where I can never get it back. Pretty good motivation, I think.
Hmm.......anyhow.....I think that's basically all I have to talk about right now...I've got to go practice the script for tomorrow...we were told that we're going to be on the phone's by tomorrow night! AGH! Prayers would be great! :) ...I'm going to try to keep this a little more updated that I had been. Starting some things off differently in my life. :)
:D
At the beginning of training, it seemed to just drag; now, it's flying by! I'm learning SO much, getting to know people so much better, and laughing so much! Tonight, for example: I was falling asleep during the first part of the class, so at our first break, I was going to get a Monster energy drink from the pop machine in the break room. Beau walked over with me, and Ericka was in there when we got there. She was standing there staring angrily at the pop machine, and we asked what had happened. She explained that it took her dollar and she wanted her money back...then we all thought, "Hey! Well, all three of us are getting something, how about one of us goes ahead and then we'll get her dollar back as change! Yeah! That'll work!!" So, I put my dollar and quarter in, and pressed the button for the Monster drinks. I got it, and got a quarter back for my change. I hadn't realised that Monster's were two dollars. So then, Beau was going to get something to get Ericka's change back, and that didn't work. So, then, a woman who was sitting there at a table behind us gave Ericka some change. But that still didn't mean Beau could get what he was going to. So he and I went back to the training room and I gave him all the change I had. Which turned out to not be enough. Then, a woman who's in training with us asked him how much he needed...all he needed was a quarter...she gave it to him, and everything was resolved. But it literally took FIVE adults to outsmart the freaking pop machine! AGHHH! Needless to say, it made me laugh. A lot. :)
...it's things like that, that make me love my job so much. Even though, technically, I've only worked there for three days. And that's only training so far. Anyways. Another reason: Beau. He and I are besties, and working with him is just the most fun thing. :) I think the people who work there are just so awesome. Everyone seems to like working there, and they all seem to get along really well!
I've set a major goal for myself, since last night. It was triggered by a few things...
....I've decided to quit smoking. Cold turkey, I'm finished. I have no more cigarettes, and don't plan on buying any more. I think the first time I thought about quitting was two days ago, at work, when we went on break and I immediately reached for them. The thought flashed through my head that it was unusual for me to go for them w/out thinking about it. I passed it off, grabbed them, and went outside and lit up. It then hit me, yesterday, that a major source of recreation for me is smoking. While I still want to do it, it's kind of gross to me now...thinking about Special Blends gives me a headache...which it has NEVER done before...I had kind of thought that after I finished this pack, I wasn't going to buy any more, and see if I could handle it. Mom and dad beat me to it though. I guess they found empty packs in my trash. And they called me on it last night. So, it all came to a big confrontation, and I'm done. I'll probably end up smoking cigars with friends once in a while, but definitely not as a regular thing.
...I've got this job, now I need to keep my act together. Plus, I was spending alot of money on cigarettes...which I could've been saving. It's a stupid thing to waste money on, because, not only does it hurt you, gradually, albeit, but it also takes money in small increments that you don't really miss. It's a dangerous habit, for more reasons than the obvious. I need to turn some things in my life around: this is just the first step in the process.
...Anyways. I figured it'd be easier to totally quit, now that it's public, on the internet, where I can never get it back. Pretty good motivation, I think.
Hmm.......anyhow.....I think that's basically all I have to talk about right now...I've got to go practice the script for tomorrow...we were told that we're going to be on the phone's by tomorrow night! AGH! Prayers would be great! :) ...I'm going to try to keep this a little more updated that I had been. Starting some things off differently in my life. :)
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
"Cookies and Juice"
Cookies and juice....
....the start to every college kids' day. Ooohhhkayyyy...so, it may not be the best food, but it's quick, convenient, and easy. (Kind of like a streetwalker...and they're both bad for you....so what's that tell 'ya....) LOL. :p
I'm not a college student, persay, but I do fall into that category..sort of. I realised when I got home from training for Incept last night, that I haven't eaten "real food" in about 4 days now...I've had an assortment of: strawberries, string cheese, yogurt, grilled cheese, starbucks, orange juice, potato chips, a hard boiled pickled egg, chocolate chip cookies, and Pall Malls. Needless to say, I haven't been eating well. I'm going to need to fix that. Soooooon. lol.
So. I said I don't fall into the college student category exactly...well, I'm not attending college, BUT! I may be getting into classes to be a Nurses' Aide...and if that happens, I will have the same kind of schedule as a college student. (just without the partying..I won't have time!)
...my schedule will look something like this: get up and be in Sebring at the nursing home for classes by 7 every morning. Then at 3 pm, when those classes end, I'll have to drive straight from Sebring to Canton, and go to work at Incept from 5-9:45 Tue-Fri. And then all day Saturday. So, it'll be fun. People keep telling me that I'm going to burn out, but I think, honestly, I'll be able to handle it. I'm capable, and willing to work my butt off, so that helps. I started training for Incept last night...well, yesterday, rather. While it wasn't "fun," it wasn't something that I'm dreading going back to. There are 10 people in this class, and I think we'll all do well. There's alot to learn, but there's also alot that I already knew...as far as that there are different kinds of blood donations...it made me feel really cool that I knew that. (Although it may just be because out of everyone, I've been in high school the most recently, and therefore am more familiar with biology...whatever though).
I've got to write a paragraph on my motivation for working at Incept....I'm not sure what angle I'm going to come from on that just yet...I'm looking forward to writing it though....I miss writing...hence I have a blog.
Ohh....yesterday, I had my interview at Copeland Oaks for the nurses aide program...I think it went well. I have to call them in about an hour and tell them that I will be able to make the clinical day for training...I'm so glad I can work out my schedule! I'm praying that I get into the training...it'd definitely give me a step-up if/when I attempt to get my LPN, or RN...
.......Lately, I've been seeing, very clearly, how God is working in my life. During the summer, I was stressing out because I didn't have any plans for this year...I had no job, and I basically had no idea what I was going to do.
I prayed, and filled out alot of applications. And none of them went, or got me, anywhere. I was scared. I was depressed. I was frustrated. I was trying, and failing. And I knew I was disappointing people, and was seen as having no ambition. I was mad. And I wanted to quit trying a few times. It was not a good time.
After coming through it all, and being on the other side, I can see that it was a trust thing. A faith thing. And I somewhat failed, in that I wasn't always trusting of God to take me where He wanted me to be. I'm upset with myself, knowing that all along, I KNEW God was going to take care of me...I should've trusted Him more. At least now I know. It's been proven to me more than once, and I'm going to let GOD do what He's gonna do in my life.
Ohhhkay. Now that I've written the "heavy stuff"...time for my most recent "FML."
....Last night after training, Beau and I went to Starbucks. When I was waiting for my coffee, the barista, (who happened to be about 6'5, ripped as heck, and gorgeous) started asking me what we were doing out and about...I told him about the job training, then we started talking about work in general. I found out he's an RN at Aultman, and we seemed to really hit it off in the 5 minutes we talked. We said goodbye, and Beau and I went outside and sat down. I kicked off my shoes, and was about to smash on my fave coffee-a white chocolate iced latte...when i realised my straw had a hole in it. Beau went back inside to get me a new one, and in doing so, asked the barista for his numer....for me. The barista, I guess, told him: "DUDE! I'm married!" Sooooo.....FAIL.
And I can no longer go to that Starbucks after work. FML. ......something like that WOULD happen to me. Ya know???? Allllways. Whatever. That's just Bubbles for you. XD
......Sooooo....I think I'm going to do the homework for the training class, and get my stuff together...cause then i have to shower and get ready and then leave for Canton...I'm meeting Beau and Donna at Panera for a bit, then going over to Starbucks and reading a book about nursing I grabbed from the library the other night....I'm just going to chill till I have to be at Incept. It'll be a good time. :)
so, i guess this is goodbye...for nooowwww, anyways.
...in the words of the people from my homeland:
Mahalo E Ke Akua No Keia La
Monday, August 23, 2010
Bubbles Is an Adult! :D
Sooo...here I am, with my life finally going somewhere.
Lord, you have been good. :) Great, actually...
Just a quick update: I have a job!
....Starting tomorrow, I am a "Conversational Marketing Expert" for Incept....more on that later.
I am sooo super excited! I also have an interview at a nursing home about 15 minutes from my house..I'd like to become a nurses aide, and they're offering classes....also, after the classes, they'll be hiring some of the people they graduate from the classes...I'm praying that i can get a job there. After that, I'd like to get my LPN, and later on, my RN. So, right now, life is going places. :) As I said before..God is good. :)
Lord, you have been good. :) Great, actually...
Just a quick update: I have a job!
....Starting tomorrow, I am a "Conversational Marketing Expert" for Incept....more on that later.
I am sooo super excited! I also have an interview at a nursing home about 15 minutes from my house..I'd like to become a nurses aide, and they're offering classes....also, after the classes, they'll be hiring some of the people they graduate from the classes...I'm praying that i can get a job there. After that, I'd like to get my LPN, and later on, my RN. So, right now, life is going places. :) As I said before..God is good. :)
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