....my life. it seems like it's just one fuckup after another. family is fighting. drama drama drama.
.....ive been through SO much shit. im fed up and done with it.
i want someone to hold me. i want someone to talk to, and someone who's shoulder i'll have to cry on.
im sick of wanting to hurt myself because of other people.
i thought my life was gonna be good. i was moving out, had a well-paying job, and i was gonna be happy. now...i don't know what to think.
i found out people weren't who i thought they were.
i was jerked around and lied to.
i was played.
i was harassed.
i was sent reeling and i was fucked over.
and looking back on it all, im done.
i've built up walls and there are reasons.
....do you not see that what you've done and what you've told me have caused me to lose trust?
what are you gonna do to bring me back around?
...cause i can pretty much guarantee it's not gonna work.
i'm struggling. i'm working my ass off to make my life work. and i guess i've learned that in order to make it work, i can't rely on anyone but myself. so fuck this.
//rant.
